Abigail Waldron always knew she wanted to be a mother. What she didn't realize was how difficult the journey to motherhood could be. After struggling with infertility and then experiencing a second-trimester miscarriage, she's left wrestling with questions about the God she's loved since her childhood, wondering, How could a good God permit such painful suffering? And, How can I keep trusting Him in the face of such great loss?

Far as the Curse Is Found explores these questions over the course of a year in Abigail's life, as she continues her quest to grow her family while seeking God for answers. To help with this process, she interviews eleven other couples on similar journeys, couples who've also had their faith tested by experiences of reproductive loss.

The stories in this book, characterized by tragedy and heartache, are difficult. Yet as Abigail engages with them, her sense of isolation is replaced with an awareness of the community that surrounds her. More importantly, she begins to see glimpses of a God who is mysteriously present in our darkest moments, a God who is always at work creating beauty from our brokenness.

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Praise for Far as the Curse Is Found


Far as the Curse Is Found is an ideal companion for any woman suffering the pain that women most dread…the loss of babies,  the struggle of infertility.  It reads like a novel; it comforts like a good friend who has been there.   Waldron invites you on a journey filled with golden nuggets of insight and hope.  This is a truly worthy read about a woman’s most personal and painful struggle.  

—Paula Rinehart, author of Strong Women, Soft Hearts and Sex and the Soul of a Woman


With this book, Abigail gently offers the gift of camaraderie to moms like me who have grieved the loss of a preborn baby and fought the fear of miscarrying again. Her words are vulnerably honest, beautifully raw, and remind us all that we can trust the Author of our stories, even when certain chapters of our lives don’t make sense. It’s a book I’ll be recommending for years to come.

—Ashleigh Slater, author of Team Us: Marriage Together and editor of Ungrind.org


Abigail Waldron writes like she lives--with beauty, intentionality, and a hard-wrought longing to see the goodness of the God in the land of the living.  Her book brings courage to those struggling with the pain of miscarriage, infertility or stillbirth.  But anyone who has lost a deeply carried dream will find in these pages the empathy and authenticity of Abigail and a host of trusted, fellow sojourners.

—Connally Gilliam, author of Revelations of a Single Woman: Loving the Life I Didn't Expect


Abigail Waldron is a gifted storyteller weaving her personal journey of infertility and pregnancy loss with other couples reproductive struggles in their attempts to fulfill their dreams of having a child and a family. Far as the Curse Is Found is a story of faith and healing.  It is a personal search for the answers to why a loving God would allow such pain.  I highly recommend this book for anyone who has experienced a loss of a dream.

—Kathy Wolf, MD


As I read the journeys of Abigail, her husband CJ and the couples interviewed, at times I was moved to tears. To see how they came to rest in Jesus in the midst of grief has given me a glimpse of afflictions I could never imagine, more compassion for those who suffer, and hope I will better mourn with those who mourn and rejoice with those who rejoice, and trust a faithful God.

—Mark Altrogge, Senior Pastor, Saving Grace Church, Indiana, PA